Today, my oldest daughter, Hailey, turns 9-years-old! I remember like it was yesterday, the feeling of holding that 9lb 6oz. little human for the first time. This tiny person that my husband and I created. It was a magical moment. Now, I’m sitting here waiting for school to let out so we can celebrate another wonderful birthday for that same precious baby. I rejoice in the fact that she is a talented, smart, funny and amazing young lady. She has filled the last 9 years of our lives with so much pride and joy, but I have to admit that some part of me is a also little sad.
My biggest baby girl is NINE! She and I have been through so much over the years. She was my first child and we hold that special bond. There was a lot of trial and error when it came to the early years of raising her, and I know that trial and error will continue through her teenage years and beyond. I was a 20-year-old first time mom who didn’t know what hoops this little bundle was going to throw me through. Now, I’m more seasoned, but I still don’t know what raising a girl through puberty and on will bring. With all that said, the last nine years have been full of laughter and tears, but most of all so much love!
Now here she is, 9-years-old! I think the hardest part is that it has dawned on me that nine is half of eighteen. This means that my sweet, darling, usually hard-headed, daughter is halfway to adulthood! Seriously?! Half of her childhood has already passed me by. I feel like I’ve wasted so much time with her. All the things I say we can do “later.” All the times I’ve thought something else was more important than what she wanted to do. Every “tough” day we’ve had that I just needed a breather from her.
I wish I could take all those moments back. I want to replace the “nos” with “yeses” and try to make the bad times happy and the happy times even happier. Before I know it, she’ll be growing out of dress ups & Barbies and moving onto texting and make-up… then boys. Oh, gosh, then homecoming and prom, then off to college… *Insert my ugly cry face here* I’M NOT READY! I just don’t want the next nine years to pass me by as fast as the previous nine. From now on, I am slowing down to take in every moment I have left with this girl.